You guys! I'm so excited. I ordered an Intuos4. It should be here on the 8th.



omg.

I will draw again, this time for reals. I wonder if I still know how.
omg.

I'm gonna go play some Borderlands. Find me on steam: Doogal ([link])





p.s. I never had nacho cheese Doritos till last night. fuck. they are awesome.

Now that I have minute, I just wanna say hi. I've been up to a lot lately and not spending enough time making arts. But what else is new, amirite?


First, I've been busy at nights in the biology lab for what seems like forever. As a side project to my research into S. lycopersici I've been concocting my own strain of brewer's yeast. It has been a fantastic experience. I finally "harvested" a vial tonight- enough to produce 6 gallons of what will tenatively be named Schroedinger's Cat. Long story, awesome name. These little guys can survive up to 15% alcohol by volume and should (underlined and italicized for extra uncertainty), based off the chromatography data, provide ample ester and phenol flavors and overtones--- a nice, light-bodied, crisp ale. Granted, it's not as flashy or nearly as awesome as some of =seymourfan's side projects (seriously, go check out her Dragoon helmets. I mean, wtf), but inventing novel strains of yeast? It's just so... me. Actually, it's no where near flashy- it's really pretty gross. I still smell agar even when I am not in the lab.

Second, I really need a new tablet. So I am going to buy a med-sized Intuos4. It's $350 but I have put it off long enough. Agreed?




Sooooooo, anyone have experience with that line? Feedback would be fabulous.

Lastly, I hope you are all doing well. Especially you, ~p-korle. Just keep being a biology nerd. We really need more people like that. I realize that no matter how I fill my time or keep myself occupied at work, I kinda miss you guys. It's a bummer how real life can keep me occupied longer than I would like.

It's me. Because I'm still here. Just...don't ask what I have been doing for the past 3 weeks.




I have seen and done..........things. OH GOD, I CAN STILL SEE THEIR FACES WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES!

I'm crossing the great Canadian outback to New York for the Thanksgiving holiday. Wish me luck, I'll be gone till Monday. I trust you all will hold things together while I am gone.

But just so you know, I would personally come and rescue each and every one of you in the event that I return to find the zombie apocalypse has begun. In the meantime, this caught me completely off guard:

It's why I like to be friends with talented people.
OUTRAGEOUS.



Have a good weekend!



IN BEFORE =avancna'S "BUT WHO WILL NOTICE YOU'RE GONE?"

Oh my. Another sappy journal.

A lot has happened in such a short amount of time. These spurts of punctuated equilibrium tend to serve as a catalyst for severe bouts of introspection. A good outcome of these recent events has been resolving some issues I had previously and steadfastly refused to confront. Albeit a minor, one of the things I have come to fully realize is why I have stopped drawing: fear of failure.

Well, that and I am incredibly lazy.

And addicted to the L4D2 demo.

But regardless, here's a snapshot of what goes on in my eety-beety mind: when I start something and I don't show aptitude right at the get-go, I just give up. It happened when I learned to play the banjo (never got past the first few chords of "When the Saint's come marching in") and it happens when I start to draw.

I think the only thing I have actually shown any aptitude for is applying transgenic technology using lambda phages and making messes with cryogenic liquids.

I have concluded that I need to do is admit to myself that I have this fear (which I did), get over it (which I am doing), do what I originally set out to do (which I will), and refuse to become like the aloof, vain individuals around me (which I wont) or end up 20-some years from now as a 40-year old alcoholic wondering what the fuck happened.

I refuse to let that happen.

_{but I wont give up the vidya games}